Sunday, September 2, 2012

Update with Fetishkimmy..

I have just posted to my site, the longest video I've ever posted. I'm hoping to do longer and longer ones..and a few Fetishkimmy in public soon. The main problem is scouting sites here for public fetish in the deep south, it can be tough to find places that I feel I won't get stoned or run out of town. I'll keep you posted on my plans as they develop.

The next thing is I have gotten in some new latex clothes. A sleeveless green top and shorts, and a black miniskirt, and a nice blue latex dress. I will be posting videos of them soon so keep an eye on my site as I upload a new video every Sunday.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Skinny vs BBW..Fetish vs 'Normal'

First off I'll start with Fetish...
We all have different ideas on what is 'normal' and what is kinky and what is Fetish. Fetish usually means to me, something that the majority of people would find shocking or 'crazy'. Some people keep their personal fetish and kink deeply in the closet..afraid to tell people for fear of what it might say about them. I find that sad and stressful. But I also understand why they do it. I feel people should feel free to express themselves..we are all different, we are not turned on by the same things..fact of life, and we should not feel ashamed to be ourselves. If all you desire is what is considered 'normal' and your partner feels the same..then that's perfectly okay. Not everyone wants to walk on the wild side, and shouldn't be put down for it. But the ones that do should not be made to feel embarrassed or ashamed by what turns them on, or what turns their partner on. Which leads me to my next topic..

I am not anti skinny people. I do not hate them or hold any grudges. I only ask the same treatment in life that they get. And I find it horrible the way we BBW and BBM are treated in society.
I grew up chubby. I got to hear the ole,"You'd be pretty if you lost some weight." Or, "You have such a pretty face if you weren't so fat."  What is a young person supposed to say to that? I got diet books for Christmas from people. Gee..thanks. I was even sent to live with a family member one summer cause she was going to 'fix me'. Once when I was with my family eating out..I had to sit alone with my brother..a group of 20 year olds came by one they passed our table, and said to him, "hey, your girlfriend is fat." I sat there in horror. No one came to my defense. I grew up with a certain identity, that I would never be accepted as me unless I was skinny. No matter what I accomplished, no matter how wonderful a person I was..I was fat..therefore not good enough.
Why is it still accepted to treat people this way? You would not go up to a little person and say 'Hey you are small.' Or to a disabled person 'Hey you are retarded.' So why can people get away with belittling fat people?
I firmly believed my whole life that I would have to meet a very tolerant person, or settle for someone to be in a relationship. No one would ever really prefer a fat person. But I am happy to say I was very wrong. You cannot imagine my shock at learning there were people in the world that liked plus sized people. And the number of people willing to be outspoken about it is growing..I hope to contribute to that.
  Another problem I had growing up fat is that guys thought I'd be 'easy'..I'm could I be picky. And they would be shocked that I refused to have sex with them. They also assumed I must eat all the time..I don't. I eat once a day..supper. They also underestimated my strength..I used to swim everyday, and I was in gymnastics til my boobs got so large. My brother used to try and show off by trying to beat me up in front of his friends. I would put his butt on the ground real fast. I grew up playing football with my cousins..and we would tackle each other hard. Stereotyping me is a mistake.
  And those painful past moments are just as fresh in my mind as they ever were. I get to carry this around with me for the rest of my life. It is not fair. And it is not fair to the other people who had to grow up this way or are growing up right now this way. How dare you do that to anyone.
  I started my website, not to just promote fetish and BBW, but to show other fat people that they are loved and wanted for who they are. I don't want not one more girl to kill themselves or think they have to settle. You don't. Don't let the media and society tell you no one wants a fat person..there are so many people out there that will find you lovely just the way you are. I know it's hard. I've lived it. And it took the kindness of a wonderful person to show me I don't have to believe the ugliness that was hammered into me.
  It is not okay to make fun of anyone. For any reason. If you don't prefer fat people..then don't date them. If you don't like being tied up or other kinky stuff..then don't do it. I am not a fan of blondes..not really attracted to them. But I don't go out and persecute them. It's just my particular taste.
  I get a lot of hate mail..and I'll admit at first I let it bother me..but now it just makes me laugh. If you watch 100 of my videos, with BBW in the title..and spew hate on all of them. Well, I have to wonder if you are just mad at yourself for maybe liking what you see and are afraid of that. And I find it sad that you took the time to do all of that when you could have been doing something productive in your life. I have plenty of fans..I treasure them all.
  So next time you hear someone putting down a fat person or anyone..please stand up for them..I can only hope one day people will be accepted for WHO they, straight, black, white, small, tall, fat, skinny, disabled, man or woman. We need to start treating people better. You don't have to like me to give me the respect I deserve.
  I welcome any comments and questions..and thank you for taking the time to read this. Be well and safe.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Getting my ducks in a row...

I have been very busy lately working on the website. I have been trying to add content and make it more user friendly. All this while dealing with different drama's that tend to crop up. So I will apologize if I have been late answering email or getting to requests or posting vids.
I am back on a schedule now, and it should run much smoother. I can promise you, I do read my mail and I do keep a list of requests. I lost a large chunk of requests and friends when Youtube banned me..and I've struggled to get back even half of my followers. For those that kept the faith and had patience that I would be will be rewarded! Thank you so much..

Friday, January 6, 2012

New Years Resolution...maybe I can keep this

Well, here it is another new year..and as usual we all reflect back to the previous year/years and tell ourselves what we would like to change for the coming year/years. I have made many empty promises, as we all have. But this year I hope to do at least one thing Paul will be proud..KEEP UP WITH MY BLOG.

If anyone has any topics they would like me to discuss, I'll be happy to do so. Also, I will keep everyone updated on any upcoming new vids..which I hope to be getting back to real soon. It's been a long hiatus I know..things kept coming up. Sorry.

I usually write at night, it seems that's when my thoughts arrange themselves into anything resembling readable. My one other goal this year is to get back to drawing..I fear how awful the first ones will be, it has been about 10 years since I did anything serious. I miss it. I used to be good at it. So, I am going to limber up the fingers and dust off my drawing board..and have at it.

I would also like to take this moment to you walk around your daily life, do something nice for someone everyday..and do it without expecting anything in return. Open a door for someone..let someone in while you are in traffic..and when someone is making fun of someone else, stand up for not tolerate someone picking on others..and for those of us who have to endure this nonsense, stand up and stop taking it. This not let being bullied or picked on stop you from living your life the best way you can. Let's all remember we don't each of live on an island..we all must, MUST learn to live and get along with others. You don't have to LIKE everyone you meet..I sure don't..but you can treat people with respect. Choose to do so..cause it is a choice.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

April 2011- Youtube Rant

Apr 19, 2011-Hello again everyone! Since this is my very own website and not a Youtube bulletin, I can feel a little more free to speak my mind without having to be too nice about it to Youtube. Here is the deal, I had to remove my vids from Youtube, at least for 6 months, anyway.The Video 10-011 First Balloon Video of 2010 was flagged for being inappropriate Youtube gave me a warning for the video.Three warnings within a 6 month period means they delete your account. Last time this happened, they game me one warning for a similarly relatively benign video, then dug up two other videos shortly afterward, and flagged those two as also being inappropriate, and used that as an excuse to delete my account. All my friends, all the lovely encouraging comments, all the subscribers, video requests, and video views were GONE. If I remember correctly, at least one of my videos was nearing 100,000 views- a milestone I was looking forward to.... all this GONE with no real explanation.I would really prefer it if instead of youtube letting you post whatever, then punishing you for it later (in this case probably over a YEAR later) that they would give you the option of posting it to a holding area for them to review it and determine if it is appropriate or not BEFORE they post it....Please email me if you would like to help. I would like to get an idea of how much support I can get in this effort to bring some fairness to Youtube's policies on determining what is appropriate-I have some really great ideas on how to help Youtube address this issue. As for video updates, please continue to check back to the site- I can post pretty much whatever I want there, and I promise not to flag my own videos :-) Please continue to send video requests, I am way behind as usual, but I will add them to my to-do list. But seriously, if you can spare about 10 minutes, email me, I think I can get youtube to listen to their viewers on this issue.